I feed off of acquiring an education, because it is out there for the taking. I just don't understand why some people don't want to continue or didn't finish. I am not judging, I am just trying to inspire positive thoughts, because in this country known as the " United States of America", it is well-known to have great opportunitites for anyone to become whatever they want to be or choose, for their career.
This country has the means to help people that want to continue their education that may have low-income. That isn't something new in this country. Don't think that it isn't possible to acquire your education even if you have a family or became older? That is such a hindrance that the devil wants people to think to make them to continue having negative thoughts that will only keep a person stagnant from even to start working on their life. Every time something needs to be accomplished you have to remember there is always a starting point to get to the finish line. God Bless you all.
These are just some of my favorite songs from childhood up until now that I enjoy listening to, especially on days like this such as Valentine's Day. Enjoy!
This is my wonderful school at Rasmussen College that I have posted about that is giving me an opportunity of a lifetime to acquire my higher learning. I have been enrolled in the school since October of last year and I am so happy for myself. I see a brighter future for me.
This month they are having a survey for the students to fill out, and the most students that fill out the survey will receive an iPad or Sony Reader. Isn't that awesome. Now their are different campuses that are competing in this contest to win. Our campus-online is winning so far being in third place. If we win this contest only one of the students will win. I am so excited for myself, because I have filled out the survey already. Please pray for me y'all.
VALENTINES DAY - Feb 14th
I am here to wish everyone the happiest valentine's day possible. Usually on this day I don't have a significant other to express my love to and more. That is alright though, because I have my beautiful children to express my love to. It doesn't only have to be a significant other to express your feelings to on this particular day. Take this opportunity like regular days to relay your feelings to your loved ones in a whole. You never know when it is your day, so take advantage of everyday, not just this day on February 14th.
Today is a day where I feel really down and out for some reason that I can't get my finger on. I tried to talk to my husband about certain feelings but it didn't turn out the way that I would have expected it to. I do love and care about my husband, but sometimes I don't understand him. We are a married couple but for some reason like normal couples, we don't spend any quality time with each other, and it is taking a toll on my self-worth.
Bing in a situation where I feel confused and lonely, where I do know what I want and need, but can't reach it is very frustrating for me. I feel that I have come too far from a lot of negative experiences, and it put a damper on certain emotional aspects in my life. At times I don't know how to feel and to make my own self happy. I don't depend on anyone else to make me happy, because they will be a life filled with misery and expectations from people. I am trying to learn how to enjoy just the little things to make me happy and have peace in my life. These are the times I try to think or talk about the great experiences that I have been through. Here is one of them recently attending my "little cousin no more" wedding this past August in 2010. It was one of the best wedding that I have been to. It wasn't because he was my cousin that I say that. I mean when I looked into their eyes, I saw the love just shining through, and that they were so happy together. They planned this wedding for a while before the actual ceremony. They canceled the first initial date of the wedding and changed it to another date. I am mentioning that because they new that they were in love and they got engaged maybe a year before the actual wedding date. The food at the reception was lovely and delicious. Half of the family participated in preparing the food, which I am sure saved them money in the long run from caterers. I got to see cousins that I haven't seen in years that was there and they felt the same way when they saw me. The church that I grew up in I wasn't there since I was a teenager, and those people that I have known and grew up with for a long time was so happy to see me and I was happy to see them. It just brought back such happy memories from my childhood that I would like to experience again, but you know that ain't going to happen. So back to reality, which is enjoying the happy times in my life and here is one for you to enjoy. See you next time.
I know that I should be more positive at this point in time of my life. I am married with a beautiful husband that have many qualities that I admire and which are hard to find in a spouse. We have been together for the last 6 years, and we have been through a lot of ups and downs where there were more down times. We recently started to get onto the right track where he is really trying to change his negative ways to improve the marriage. I am recognizing those important changes to not only improve the marriage, but my self-worth as well.
When me and my husband used to argue at each other, we used to call one another such bad names that we couldn't take back till' this day. I recently stopped trying to sabotage our marriage at times during arguments by trying to run him away forever. I just admitted that to my husband recently. I was doing those things, because I felt so guilty about the situations that we caused one another and we were continuing to act very vulgar and mean towards each other for a while. I didn't really understand before, but now I realize that words can cause lot of mental damage and anguish. I feel really hurt and devastated on the damage that happened between us, and even though we are still together, I think about the past that was bad all the time. Continuing to think negative is only hurting our marriage, not helping it and making the good times that we do have seem non-existent.
We both feel that we should try from scratch no matter what we have done to each other in the past 6 years that we have been together. I am not saying that the whole 6 years of our relationship was negative, but I am saying that it took a whole lot of work to get where we are presently at right now. I am grateful for that because I am well aware that it does take daily work to have a strong relationship.
I am here back again just trying to update my blog on you guys about what is going on with me. A lot has happened since I last posed some things on my blog. I have neglected it long enough, but I have good reasons. I have recently enrolled in a college online that I really enjoy. I decided to go back to college to finish earning my Bachelor's Degree. I want to get a Bachelor's Degree in Healthcare Management, because I already have my Associates Degree in Office Administration-Medical. I recently wanted to change my major to just Business Management. I feel that having that general degree in Business Management could still gain me a career working as a Healthcare Manager and many more options, opposed to just Healthcare Management.
It took a long time for me to find a college online that was accredited to be able to have employers accept my degree to give me an opportunity. For you guys out there looking for a great online college where you can still have full-time employment while earning your degree without worrying about time management, Rasmussen College is the online college for you. They also have campuses around the country, but it a great option to have online courses that you can be able to log onto anytime you like and do your assignments, get feedback from instructors, meet classmates, have resources to be able to finish your homework all online. I LOVE IT! I am so proud of myself, because I have a 3.2 average so far. I sometimes be hard on myself to achieve a higher grade than 80's and 90's like I am perfect. For some reason I want to always have 100% on my tests and assignments all of the time, and when that doesn't happen, I get a little disappointed. I have to realize that I am still doing excellent and I am working hard. I have to give myself more credit, because I have 3 children that I take care of throughout the day, and I still have the opportunity to be able to finish school and learn. Nothing is going to stop me now. Education will get me anywhere I want to go. GO FOR EDUCATION! Education is everything. God Bless.
Sometimes I feel that is the wrong thing to do. It's not, because in order for me to function properly with productivity, I have to take care of myself mentally, emotionally, as well as verbally. Telling and reminding myself that I am somebody and I am important to myself. If I don't manifest that within myself I can't expect nobody else to do that for me. I am important just like everybody else in this lifetime. I didn't ask to be hear and to experience the negative circumstances in my life.
I have to keep reminding myself to do that, because I will feel like "WOE IT'S ME" for the majority of my life, and it's too overwhelming. The 'Negative' thoughts all the time about my past and how it is effecting my present life and my marriage. I have to Moooooooooooooove on, for real. If I feel that it's impossible to move on, I will never have a positive or productive/happy future.
I want to be happy and at peace within myself. It just seems like their are a lot of distractions mentally that I can't seem to shake. Even though my mother and father are not in my life, I still refuse to let them go in a sense of not being a part of my life. I just can't understand, being a mother myself, that she could not have a relationship with her children, is beyond my understanding.
I am having problems in my marriage right now and I am not happy. I didn't expect to feel like I am loosing myself. I can't eat properly. I am not really taking care of myself like I used to, because I am constantly thinking about my marriage. I don't want to feel so alone and neglected. He acts like he doesn't care when I express my feelings to him. He constantly hurts me by yelling and screaming at me all the time and not being receptive to my feelings. It just seems like a psychological game to him or something, while I am all emotional at those times.
It's no intimacy, romance, or spending time together. When that stops in a marriage for a looong period of time, expect your marriage to end soon. That is where we are at right now. When I try to talk to him about that, for some reason he takes it personal and he's defensive. He just ignores me and rejects me. It seems that when we are not intimate, that doesn't bother him, which I think is unusual. A man that loves a woman and vise versa will want to spend that quality time with each other. That's important to them, to enhance and maintain there marriage. It shows you care. He is the opposite of the typical. I just feel that it is a sign that he doesn't love me anymore.
I don't know how to feel or what to do. I know that I don't deserve this type of treatment. I am a good woman and was raised with morals and respect. I understand and except reality, but I can't accept when a person can treat you any way that he feels with no conscious. It just baffles my mind to treat someone that I call myself loving and marrying, then had 2 children with that way. He called me "UGLY" and that "YOU LOOK LIKE A MAN" numerous times enough. That was the icing on the cake. It was like a hot knife slicing through my heart.
He broke my heart so bad that I don't know if that scar can heal enough to be able to move on with him. It hurts too much to even look at him for a certain length of time. One of the reasons that you would marry someone is to maybe make there lives even happier and enriched. Not make them feel like their useless and worthless. That's how he makes me feel. My self-esteem is so low at this point, and I want it to end somewhere.
When you marry someone you have strong feelings for them obviously, but at some point reality sets in. Changes do happen between people every now and then and circumstances do occur. It's up to the couple to support one another unconditionally to be able to get through the "STORMS". If that doesn't exist in the marriage, then eventually resentment and bad feelings start to happen.
I want to know is anyone, woman or man, going through a Bad Marriage and don't know what to do?I am open for all comments.
I read this article from http://www.articlesbase.com/, really explaining the reasons why he is acting the way he is.
I went to Walmart a few weeks ago to pick up some under garments for my 3 1/2 year old daughter, and I decided to add in some beauty products. I ran out of a deep conditioner, so I decided to try "Organic Root Stimulator" brand Hair Mayonnaise treatment for damaged hair. It contained all these natural ingredients that are excellent for the hair. I have read reviews and opinions on different natural hair websites, like Nappturality, Associated Content, and Afrobella to name a few.
I needed a product for my natural hair. I am a natural hair wearing sista, so I neeedsMOISTURE at all times. A product that lets my hair retain moisture and Organic Root Stimulator Hair Mayonnaise did the job. The ingredients seem natural and not with those harsh chemicals like Mineral Oil and Petrolatum, which prevents moisture from entering your scalp.
My hair came out so soft and shiny from the first time using the Hair Mayonnaise. I left it in over night with a plastic cap on from sitting under the conditioning heating cap for 45 minutes. I washed it out the next afternoon. It was so soft and shiny and it seem stronger, more curl definition and my products saturated my hair better.
I also went to Costco and picked up a 40 oz pump-like bottle of Dove Daily Moisture Therapy Shampoo for dry, rough hair with a Moisturizing Serum. I read the ingredients, because I have created a habit of reading the back of labels off of anything that I buy. I'm just interested on what is in the things that I buy. It doesn't have any harsh ingredients that is known for not being good for natural hair. I figure it is a good habit, to know exactly what your putting in your body, whether its topical or not. It makes you wonder sometimes, like if you can't understand what the ingredients are, why would you put it in your system and wait for whatever to happen. It's better to be more knowledgeable and cautious.
I washed my hair with this Moisturizing Shampoo before I Deep conditioned with the Organic Root Stimulator Hair Mayonnaise. It didn't make my hair feel brittle or dry. My hair felt soft and supple, not robbed of all its natural moisture. I wanted to wait and see if the first time results would happen again for the second time, so I can know for sure that this was a good moisturizing Shampoo. I wash my hair at least weekly, so this is my opinion from using the Dove Shampoo for the third time since I brought it. I like the shampoo and I will continue to buy.
APHOGEE TWO-STEP PROTEIN TREATMENT
Now this protein treatment is the first time that I have used this. I have been reading about this Aphogee for a long time. I have been watching videos on You Tube and reading about it on natural hair blogs, and I wanted to try it. I have been negleting my hair and my deep conditioning routine since I had my third baby, and she is 6 months old now. My hair was starting to get real dry and brittle and it seemed like when I would do a hot oil treatment, the oil wouldn't saturate my scalp like it was supposed to. I had split ends, not so bad, but I could see that it was starting to split at some strands.
I used to be on a strict routine of washing, then deep conditioning then finally rinsing with apple cider vinegar on my hair weekly. I wouldn't miss, and at that time, my hair was in its best state. I noticed a big difference on the way I would comb my hair and it would be kind of tangled. It wasn't like that before I started neglecting it. I was able to easily manipulate the comb through my hair when I would detangle with conditioner. So I decided "buy it and try it" .
One thing for sure, you have to be very careful on following the directions, exactly, as it illustrates on the bottle. If you don't, you will pay the price. I have read on some reviews, that it smelled like rotten egg and it stinks very badly. I think that it has a smell, but not that bad as some people describe, bug every body has their own opinion. One thing I don know for sure, that all of that hard work is worth it, because my hair came out so much stronger, softer, shinier, and more curl definition. The problem with my products not adhering to my hair strands was gone. My hair was more moisturized now because of the oils now saturating my scalp like it is supposed to. I will continue to use this every 6 weeks. EXCELLENT!
WHITE RAIN FRUIT FORTIFYING CONDITIONER
Now I brought this conditioner on a whim, even though it has great ingredients. I was sort of skeptical at first because of the 79 cents price tag. Don't be fooled about price tags, because this is a conditioner that I use for detangling purposes. I would wash my hair, deep condition then saturate my hair with this conditioner on sections of my hair and use my detangling brush. I would take out the braids in sections the following day and my hair was so shiny and moisturized and I didn't have to moisturize my hair often, until maybe 4 days.
I recently started using conditioner as my detangler and moisturizer. I was looking for a leave-in conditioner that is going to leave my soft, looking and feeling moisturized. I have tried numerous hair lotions and it would leave a residue in my hair when it dried. I have recently saw a video on You Tube and a woman was using conditioner as her detangler and she was doing it for a long time. I decided to try it to, because it wouldn't hurt. Sometimes you learn something by just taking that chance.
I have been using this White Rain Fortifying Conditioner for like a month and a half now, and I love it. It made my hair stronger, because it contains Fruit oils and concentrates. Panthenol, being one of the main ingredients that you look for in a conditioner
I am a married mother of 3 beautiful, blessed children, who I enjoy spending quality time with.
I currently am a stay-at-home mom. So you know I have to find something to enjoy in my spare time for myself. I love to read inspiring novels and books that are informative, as well as good resources for the mind and spirit.
I feel like this world doesn't exist by material things. It's a lot of people out there who are more materialistic than being themselves and just going with the flow. That includes meeting new people and enjoying conversation, which I enjoy doing.
I just love to help people the best way I can. I don't do it for recognition, I do it because it's apart of me. If I was rich, I would help as much people/organizations that I can for the less fortunate. I always be aware that someone is going through worse situations than myself. That's why I know that throughout all my struggles and triumphs I have been through, I AM BLESSED!
I strive for higher education, because it's one of the most important accomplishments to achieve in life. It's not for anyone else, but for yourself. You are the one that's going to benefit in the long-term. I plan on going back to college to complete my Bachelor's Degree in Office Administration/ Management. It's never too late!
I have been through a lot of negative experiences and dealt with people, including family members who perpetrated like they cared about me. They tried to bring me down in so many ways, mentally and emotionally, that I would get more into in my future postings.
I decided to take that negative and I turned it into a positive to benefit me, or else they would have won the WAR. I knew that graduating from high school and college, I will be able to take care of myself. I'd be able to move away from these negative people that was in my circle at the time as quick as possible.
I am just the type of woman who tries to be genuinely honest on every level, not FAKE. I believe it takes too much energy to be phony and not be yourself.
My new liking, at this moment, that I want to continue is Blogging. I really enjoy it, because of the people I meet in the same situations/circumstances. Just meeting new people from all walks of life. I am still learning as I go along and will continue to learn as long as I live. I take good/positive advise as they come along, just noNegativity, Please. My senses are receptive to the POSITIVE in things!
My inspiration is also my children, who taught me more patience about everything in life. One thing I know for sure is that, if you acquire patience, you will be able to get through any adversity or setback. I try to put GOD first before anything and everything, because there is always a Higher Power to determine any outcome. Just hold on to that comforting word of, FAITH, and all will prevail. GOD has Blessed me beyond my understanding, not saying I don't deserve it, because everyone does.
The reason for me writing this blog, first off, is I know it will inspire others out there going through negative situations and maybe want to get out of it. In turn that helps me even more, because I know I am receiving a reception. That's one option that I would like to accomplish.
I was searching the sites for a new Theme Template for my Blog. Something that will have the relevancy or the feel of my topic. The template that I have now is from a woman name Tenille:
I made a really bad error saying in my past post that the layout/design of my blogs template was from some other template designer. Please forgive me, Tenille, if your reading out there. You make some beautiful designs and you deserve full credit for that.
I was thinking about how sometimes in life, the same scenario would play itself out again. I am especially speaking from a personal point of view, as well as from my own experiences on this subject in many ways.
It just seems to me that when you go through an emotional/mentally devastating situation(s), for example, an abusive relationship you have to make sure you learn from it.. Not learning anything from that type of experience would not be beneficial to you or your children if you have any. You would find yourself back, once again, in the same abusive relationship, becaue you didn't learn from the previous abusive relationships. The only difference would be that it was a different person , but the same scenerio. Here is a video about the subject of Deja Vu here:
It seems inevitable to not pass down a negative path of the same negative situations, depending on your mental, as well as emotional well-being. Everybody goes through negative experiences in their lives. It just depends on how you may have handled the situation to not experience it again. You have to ask yourself:Didn't I learn from the negative experience I went through before and vowed not to make those same bad decisions over and over again? Make the smart decision and stick to that decision. Words, anyone can pronounce and say out of their mouths, but it takes action, for even yourself, to take the statement and manifest it.
Everybody has options in life to choose which path they would want their life to go. Me, personally, it just seems to me that sometimes negative situations happen by random from "wrong place, wrong time" scenerios. I say that because from experiences, scenarios happened to me with my own family members that I didn't expect. I then, in turn, experienced the same outcome from things in my a relationship with an older man 13 years my senior when I was 22 years old, up until 29 years. I didn't know better at the time. I did know for sure that I didn't and will not go through the same abusive relationship with anybody again, whether it be friends, family, whoever. It comes in all forms.
I was brought up in a surrounding that was materialistically plentiful, but emotionally support was lacking. I say that, not to get off of the subject of Deja Vu situations, but to say that it effects children when your not there for them emotionally. Some people may not call it abuse, well I oppose. I got whatever I asked for from my guardians when I was younger, but not what I really needed. When I got older and got into relationships, without me knowing, I was searching for what I was missing when I was a child. My biological parents didn't raise me, so without me realizing it and being immature, I accepted any kind of acceptance I received from that abusive relationship.
I think that is one of the reasons, maybe many people out there, on why I kept having the same abusive DejaVu situations. In addition, not having my biological parents in my life, even in the present day, makes me feel even worse and they are knowledgeable of my contact information. They just choose not to be in my life for whatever reason, unknown.
I wanna know if there is anyone out there who may have went through any type of negative experience that you have tried to get over. All of a sudden, the same Deja Vu experience creep-ed up on you again?
Chris Brown ought to fell really ashamed for even trying to promote any album or himself on BET today. What he, allegedly, has done to the beautiful Rihanna is inexcusable on every level. She is a woman, not a man for the outcome to be the way it was from just a disagreement about, whatever. He ought to continue his sentence for community service, counseling and whatnot to have more time to think about what he has caused. Click on the link to watch Rosci from 106 & Park on BET interview Chris Brown.
For such a young man of his age, he has a lot of life lessons ahead of him. So hopefully he learned from this one. Only time will tell, because you can't play an act for so long. The real person will come out sooner than later.
He did some interviews recently, on Larry King Live, talking about what happened between him and Rihanna. My opinion is that he wasn't honest or genuine with his comments. He was stuttering and he really didn't know how to put his words together to even make a statement, because I just think he was feeling embarrassed and ashamed for even talking about it. He felt like he was "On the Spot" sort to speak, the light was shining on him, but his performance is not positive or innocent entertainment.
There are a lot of people in this world that are not doing things positively, because this is not a perfect world. But then you have other people who strive for perfection by believing in the Higher Power, which is God of course and trying to teach others how to attain the same things in their life. Those are the people that are going to manifest actions showing others that they are not perfect, but I am trying to accomplish things in life that are beneficial to me and others around me.
I grew up with this saying, "Birds of a feather flock together", which is so true. That saying means that if you are not the type of person that manifest negativity, and the people that you associate yourself with do, why are you talking to them or associating yourself with them if your not of that caliber.
I learned that when a person is miserable, they want company. Like the saying goes "Misery loves Company", which is so true. Most people that are miserable like to wallow in their misery, because that is their comfort zone, they don't know any better.
One of my Natural Hair and/or Spiritual Inspirations
Every time I see (Jill Scott), whether it be on television, magazines, or even if I hear her on the radio, I get inspired because of her attitude as well. She is one of the prime examples of what being "Natural" really means.
Her music, I think is very much so underrated. I think it is because she mostly sings about love and Soul music, which is not really attracting this up and coming generation to much. Whats more attractive nowadays is superficial music and dialogue that's so typical. I am more into the Old school music, because it's Naturally speaking about life and real love, and how to maintain that.
I don't know thisv woman's name, truly embarassing, but anyway I have seen her a lot on I think the TV show, "Entertainment Tonight", if I am not mistaken. If it's not that show, then it's one of those entertainment news shows. I am quite sure about that one because I watch those shows all of the time. If that's the case you would think that I would know her name. I will find out though, for sure.
Soon as I saw her hair for the first time, I was so inspired by the way her Natural hair was styled. It seems like more of a braid-out than a twist out. Ever since that first time I saw her hair, I would look for her when I would watch the show, just to see her hairstyle. She maintains her hair very well which I love. She has the Natural personality to go with it as well.
India Arie, of course will be in this category, because she has been Natural since, she came out onto the scene, and I am sure before that. Her personality really shines through her music, which is so soulful and reminds me of Peace and teaches me to be nobody but yourself, because you look at yourself in the mirror at the end of the day. She is just not afraid of being who she is, no matter what anybody says. Except her for who she is or nothing else.
I think her music is underrated as well, because some people think that facing reality sometimes is scary.
It is at times, but we all have to do it sometimes, and I think that her music really reflects that we all have to look at ourselves sometimes and realize we have to be REAL within ourselves, and that's why I love some India Arie.
This is of course one of my Ultimate Favorites Natural Woman, Erykah Badu. She is such an eclectic person as well as her personality to go with it. She is what you call "Soul Music", very underground and witty, very catchy, if you have ever watched her perform. You wouldn't have a choice but to get up and dance, because her lyrics are so spiritual, but real at the same time.
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Didn't write in my blog for a long time, because a lot of new things are and were happening and I just lost track of it and attending to my blog like i am supposed to.
This is a picture of me, on the top, left-hand corner, when I was pregnant with my first daughter, but second child, Adonise. This was in December 2005 when I was at my husband, but boyfriend at the time Family's Christmas gathering we had in Baltimore, Maryland. It was so much fun down there. I would like to move down there someday.
Today is Monday the first "real" day of the week to start being productive in the world. I woke my son up this morning to take him to school. At this time in my life I am looking for a real job to become a more productive citizen and to feel more independent.
Getting to the real point, I am typing at my computer starting my hair journey, and along the way, I will get to know myself better as I go along. Right now, it is 10:44 pm and about 10 minutes ago I put about a Tbsp of "Nourish Spa", from Trader Joes, mixed with my Castor oil/Coconut oil concoction and also "Ultimate Herbal Oil" into my dry hair to pre-poo over night. I've done this before, but not on a consistent basis to see the outcome. But from what I was reading on other Natural sister websites, it works with hair growth and retaining moisture to obtain more length for the hair.
First off I should tell how I became natural and why I made that decision. I first became natural in 2000 when I transitioned to dreadlocks from having a perm in my hair since I was 15 years old. I believe up until I was 23. It was in a time in my life where I've experienced more situations met new people and it was enlightening the knowledge and wisdom that I acquired. It's like when you become older and venture out on your own and you become, eventually, who you really are. I was on that journey and the information about our pasts and our history and the people of influence that made us who we are today, I just became one of those proud people who wasn't afraid to stand up and accept and be happy with where I came from and and who my ancestors are and to just be proud of that. I felt strongly that I didn't need or like "extra", which means additions that other people thing they may need to become who they want to be. I became more happy with my "natural" hair, my "natural" completion, my natural me.
Locs and Natural Hair on Circle of Moms
I wore dreads from the time of 23 years old up until I was 29 years old. It grew to the middle of my back and was getting very heavy. I loved my dreads, because it was easy to maintain. Just to re-twist the hair when needed. I learned how to take care of my hair as I went along in the years. I thought I was doing the best I can, because it grew so long. We learn something new everyday. I cut my dreads off, stayed natural for like a month or two and decided to put a texturizer in my hair. It was going okay for several months. I was washing and conditioning it like every other day. Didn't really now too much about pre-poo, co-wash and deep conditioning and how important incorporating these routines in your hair regimen would be until I decided to put a perm in my hair in January of this year. Two months later, my hair started to break in the back middle of my head. Then it just started to fall out. I told myself I have to cut my hair off and never put anymore chemicals in my hair again, because I didn't need it. My hair was so used to being natural for all those years I had dreadlocks.
I did the BIG CHOP in June of this year. Ever since then, I have been gaining knowledge about maintaining natural African American hair from going on different websites and blogs. My very first informative site that I went to was motowngirl.com. Know that gave me more that enough starter information and inspiration to maintain a healthy head of natural hair. I love it, I love it, I love it. I have now acquired maybe like 1 1/2 inches of new growth from having a "ceaser" cut.
I just recently found out about maintaining the proper moisture/protein balance. It requires eating the proper diet, which is top priority. Try to take a multivitamin daily. Exercising, I recently found out helps as well. I am washing and deep conditioning weekly. Yesterday, I realized that I can twist my hair into little miniature twists, not two strand twist, but just enough to catch to twist the hair. I was real happy, because 2 months ago I was almost completely bald from the BIG CHOP. I will just continue my weekly and daily routine of maintenance and I will continue to see results. I just can't wait for my hair to reach a length when I could put it in puffs and Wash and Go's. I am wanting to stay all natural with the hair products also, because of all the Sulfates, Cones, and other nasty and toxic ingredients that just doesn't help in the long run, but does the opposite. Instead of moisturizing and replenishing the hair and deep within, it steals moisture and has ingredients that prevent the hair from acquiring moisture by blocking the pores in the scalp from receiving it. So when products are put in your hair, the hair doesn't except it. The product will just sit on top of the hair.
