Sometimes I feel that is the wrong thing to do. It's not, because in order for me to function properly with productivity, I have to take care of myself mentally, emotionally, as well as verbally. Telling and reminding myself that I am somebody and I am important to myself. If I don't manifest that within myself I can't expect nobody else to do that for me. I am important just like everybody else in this lifetime. I didn't ask to be hear and to experience the negative circumstances in my life.
I have to keep reminding myself to do that, because I will feel like "WOE IT'S ME" for the majority of my life, and it's too overwhelming. The 'Negative' thoughts all the time about my past and how it is effecting my present life and my marriage. I have to Moooooooooooooove on, for real. If I feel that it's impossible to move on, I will never have a positive or productive/happy future.
I want to be happy and at peace within myself. It just seems like their are a lot of distractions mentally that I can't seem to shake. Even though my mother and father are not in my life, I still refuse to let them go in a sense of not being a part of my life. I just can't understand, being a mother myself, that she could not have a relationship with her children, is beyond my understanding.
